Saturday, February 25, 2006
i've been really hating my blog recently. it's due for a skin change, but although i have the designs done already, i can't seem to muster the energy to get it done. also, i've just been going on and on about the same thing. but it just doesn't stop. everything just keeps happening.
went to his blog today, and found this:
"geez today is one shitter of a day. and yada yada yada, i'm feeling a bit better until i came back home and went online. yes she was there again. to be honest whenever i talk to her online i really really really feel like shit. i dun know what the hell it is about, but yeah i feel like shit, just talking to her. i dun feel good at all.
"great. it just keeps getting better.
i've blocked him now. if i don't make him feel good, then what's the point of talking any more? why does that physical distance change everything so much? we were perfectly happy back home, well not perfectly happy, but at least we could have good times and laughter. we used to put a smile on the others' face so easily. now i feel like i've been flogging a dead horse, all my attempts to keep this afloat. i feel like the only one doing anything, and he just keeps killing it with his monosyllabic answers and unfounded skepticism.
fuck this, man. cold storage is probably the best thing to do now.
**dream until you die**1:09 PM
