Thursday, October 06, 2005
FUCK. YOU. for those who dunno who i'm talking about, this is not important.
thank you so much for putting a great end to today. not to mention a day that's meant to be special. a day that's supposed to be a fucking celebration of my goddamn existence on this fucking earth. your hypocrisy is absolutely the best gift i could ever have received, so thank you so much. now i know what you are. now i have absolutely no doubts that i have avoided something that would have wrecked me again. i can't express enough gratitude for the hurt that you've given, the disappointment you've brought me, and for the affirmation that what i often feel is correct. oh wait, no, scratch that. obviously i'm a lousy judge of character.
clearing things up means clearing things up. you don't tell someone you care for that you're gonna leave them to go crazy on their own. you really know how to hit it where it hurts.
you're not who i thought you were. i used to wish it could be different, but now i don't any more.
a big thank you and big hugs and kisses to puma and imimi, who made my birthday an enjoyable day. also to the anonymous schoolgirls who waved at me on the tram today. i don't know who you are, but that brought a smile.
thank you. in all sincerity.
**dream until you die**10:52 PM
